No matter how bad I want us to be together again, things won’t be as good as they were the first time. I hate how much I want to be with you but in the back of my mind, I know that if it were to happen, it’s not going to be the same. Things will definitely change between us than the first time. Some things just aren’t meant to happen again. I hate this, but it’s the sad truth about us.
You don’t always have to be sweet and lovey dovey all the time. You can be the assholes to each other and be mean. That’s when you know there is comfortability. Making fun of each other, calling mean names, abusing each other. Abusing as in joking around. The playful fighting. That’s another way to show love.
Moving on is hard, isn’t it? You gotta get used to not seeing their name pop up on your phone when they used to text or call. You gotta get used to not visiting their Facebook like your usually do. You gotta get used to not seeing them & not hang out with them, anymore. You even gotta get used to not thinking about them & that’s real hard ‘cause it’s hard to forget someone when they gave you so much to remember.
When a guy’s willing to just stay home for his girl. When he’s willing to give up going out w/ his homies, smoking weed, drinking, because he’d rather make his girl happy. It’s cute when a guy can give up what used to make him happy, for what makes his girl happy. Besides, if a guy loved you enough, he would know what would make you happy in the first place.
I don’t care what time it is or what I’m doing, I’d never miss a chance to get to talk to you. I love our phone calls. I love your laugh. I love talking to you. I love hearing your voice. Especially before going to bed, you keep me smiling for the rest of the night. There’s no one else that I would want to talk to besides you.
That is so rare. So when a guy has respect for females, that’s like, an instant click. How they know how to talk to a lady & treating them like one, respecting them, & just being a gentlemen. Not always expecting girls to be easy & all. When they expect more than just your outer appearance, & know that girls could be open minded & smart, that’s like, Nutella on a cupcake.
It takes a lot for me to actually give up on something or someone. I can’t just throw away all the hard work and time I put into it. I can’t just give up because times are hard, especially if that person means so much to me. I keep fighting for what I want until I can’t fight anymore, until giving up is the only option left.
I want a late night adventure. I want someone to call me up and say, “I’m outside. Let’s go do something!” I want to go out late at night in my pj’s and my hair a mess. Maybe drive around. Go to a park and just swing on the swings. Maybe sit in the grass and watch the stars or maybe go to a 24 hour food place and pig out. I just want a late night adventure with people I like to be around. No drama. Nothing but good vibes and good company.